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I have never written on a blog before but I don’t know anyone who has been through a situation like mine. I’m 32 and I thought I had met the man of my dreams, I found out into the relationship that he was a previous herion addict but had been clean for 7 years. Maybe I was very nieave to think that he would never touch that shit ever again, I haven’t really been involved in drugs and just thought that he was over that part of his life. Last week he started acting strange for a number of days, when I questioned him about what was going on he just got quite nasty, he didn’t come home from work on Sunday, I had a call at 8.45 to tell me he had overdosed and was in hospital, that journey was the worst of my life, u had no idea what I was walking into, and when I did, I won’t forget how I saw him, I’ve had to end the relationship and he’s gone to live with his dad, he overdosed again on Tuesday morning, I feel like my world has fallen apart and everytime the phone goes I dread it. I love him with all my heart but I can’t live in fear forever, I’m just finding all this so hard to deal with, I feel like it’s a dream, like it’s someone else’s nightmare