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Addiction sucks

Posted by Annon on 8 January 2015.

I'm 17... Ever since I was 13 my brother has been addicted to heroin there's been times with overdoses near death that if I didn't find him on the bathroom floor he'd be dead, I hate how I had to grow up like this. My dad had to stay home just so he could watch my brother and make sure he wouldn't steal anything for drug money my dad became an alcoholic and has gotten really bad over the pasts weeks my brother recently moved out went to rehab for like shit 8th time and is now clean after a few relapses and now my dad has to go? I tell my mom how bad my anxiety has gotten  but she just says I'm fine I've recently had panic attacks and sometimes I just feel like I don't deserve this I don't wanna worry about one a of my family members dying just people don't realize how hard it is for the people around the addiction honestly it's hard too


9 Jan 2015

WOW, THAT IS HARD!!!  I'M SORRY TO HEAR THAT.  AND KNOW THAT YOUR MOM TOO IS OVERWHELMED WITH FEAR AS WELL AND SHE JUST PROBABLY CANT TAKE ANY MORE BAD NEWS FROM HER FAMILY THAT'S WHY SHE BRUSHES YOUR CONDITIONS OFF.  (I'M SORRY ABOUT THE CAPS, i'M NOT  YELLING.  i COULDN'T FIND MY GLASSES) i JUST FOUND GLASSES.  I am a mom too. and Ive been a daughter as well. Ive used drugs and had kids who used drugs. So I know that your life might seen so stuck but its not.  Do you have health insurance and a doctor? At 17 I believe you can make appointment on your own to start the ball rolling to get you help>  You are most likely depressed too.  You are right in feeling this way but know it will get better.  Your family is suffering and you all need each other but you are at point where you need to think about moving out.  Maybe with a friend.  Not a boyfriend as those kind of relationships right now for you will be hard and add to your level of stress. Do you have an aunt or grandparent you could stay with right now?  you need to love your family. No ones perfect. but you need to take care of you too. So distance yourself from the unhealthy chaos. good luck t you.

Icarus Trust
9 Jan 2015

So sorry to hear how you are feeling. You are right it is very hard on the families and friends around addiction but there is help for you out there.  It sounds like it might be good to talk through how you  worried you are feeling with someone who would understand what you are going through. The Icarus Trust is a charity which supports people like yourself. We could offer you the support of one of our experienced trained volunteers called 'Family Friends who you could talk with . 
You can contact us on or visit the website
I hope that contacting us might help you. Good luck.

9 Jan 2015

Oh Hunni, it's so hard and you sound like are suffering so much...your mum doesn't meAn to ignore your crries of must be hard..however you are very important and need some support. Have mum and dad sought support for themselves..dealing with an addict is hard, lonely and frustrating and frightening....I agree with the poster who replied...can you go to grandparents for a while? Speak to your doctor, find a local support group and perhaps when. MUm and dad are together tell them ...,don't deal with this alone Hunni..hugs to you and take care xxx

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