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is my dad back on herion? what shall I do?
Posted by krissykris on 16 June 2014.
hey, I'd really like to talk to someone I can relate to, or can relate to me, for advice and support, anything would be greatly appreciated. I'm a 21 year old woman and my father is a herion addict, im not sure how it all started as i was too young, im not sure when hes clean or not as I don't see him often enough. my mum split from my dad when I was 3, and she never let him know where we lived. I pinned for him for years and years, demanding my mum call him, consistantly asking for him,calling him myself (often with no reaponse) only seeing him very occasionaly, maybe once every few years. eventually when I was 11 my mum told me my dad was on herion. and it was the most painful thing still to this day I'd ever heard. because you know when loved ones pass away theres sometimes almost a kind of peacefulness, and you can fully comprehend why they're no longer with you. whereas having someone you love soo much who loves you soo much being absent because of something like drug addiction its hard to find peace and it doesn't stop hurting. I hated him for years. I'm sorry to say I wished he was dead at points when I was younger because then I couldn't understand why he wasn't there, why he couldn't just stop the drugs and love me back, be my dad, because honestly despite how young I was, i really fought to have contact with him. and the lack of fight in return I took as a rejection and i just really didn't take it well. It's very different today, I don't hate my dad, I don't wishhe was dead. I look at the lack of the quality of life he's had, and how he's never made anything of himself despite being a smart artistic individual and it just makes me feel heart broken and I want to encourage and support him to a better, happier quality of life. last I saw him was a few months ago and it pains me to see how much he's hurting. I thought he was clean and id been calling him for emotional support as I was having big personal problems and he really really did help me with advice. but when I saw him his pupils were very restricted, he was sweating quite profoundly after spending a few hours with me, when I call him over the past few weeks hes been asleep or in bed mid day and his speech is very slurred. he also makes up silly lies. I love him. I regret being such a little bitch at times when I was younger. I owe it to my smart funny loving dad to at least try and support and help him. but I need to know what shall I do? how can I tell for sure he's back on it? how can I speak to him about it? should I speak to him about it? is there any organisations that can help and or advise me? does anyone have any advice or tips? thanks if anybody did read.
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