mmmmmmmmmmlli mmmmmmmmmmlli mmmmmmmmmmlli mmmmmmmmmmlli

for
families

We care, for the better.

A place for families, because you don't have to use drugs to be affected by them.

sign in

Sign in to make comments and contribute your own stories. Or click here to register if you've never used the blog before.

Sign In

Want to find a support group? Enter your postcode or town below to find a support group near you.

Find help

Share Your Story

My boy

Posted by Evonia on 25 September 2017.

My baby boy was delivered by forceps after I had been injected with pethidine several times. He was a hyperactive child and despite my going to our gp and asking for help for him, none was available. My boy started smoking marijuana at the age of 15. I was distraught and went to our gp, only to be told not to worry unless he started injecting drugs. My boy is now 46 and a heroin addict with hiv and hepatitis C. His life has been spent living on the streets and in and out of prison. I am too frightened of him to ever be alone with him again as he beat me badly after my Mothers death. He had taken a cocktail of drugs and slept on her grave in the rain. He then came to see me and god knows what was going through his mind, it took 3 men to pull him off me as he thumped me in the head over and over. I am heart broken over the way his life has turned out. I feel guilty, helpless, sometimes overwhelmed with grief. My only communication with him now is by messenger, a virtual relationship. My life is wonderful, and that makes me feel even worse about his. I wonder if his forceps delivery contributed to the way he has turned out? Maybe his brain was damaged in some way? Can anyone else relate to this please?

Comments

RosieB
11 Oct 2017

Hi, I can really relate to this and would love to be in touch with you x

Icarus Trust
24 Oct 2017

Hi Evonia,
Thank you for posting and sharing your sad story. I am so sorry to read what you have gone through and how difficult your relationship with your son is. It is very sad that you are feeling guilty and helpless but am also glad to hear that your life is good despite what is going on. You must be such a strong person! 
If you think that it would help to talk with people who would understand what you are going through please contact The Icarus Trust. We are a charity that provides support for the families and friends of those with addictive behaviours. We offer a free service called 'Family Friends,' our trained and experienced volunteers who you could speak with if you get in touch.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website www.icarustrust.org
I hope this helps.

You must be signed in to comment. To sign in, use the form to the right, or click here to register if you've never used the blog before.

Submit