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I met my boyfriend 8 years ago it was a normal happy relationship and we were very happy, I got pregnant 3 years into our relationship and we both where very very happy. It was after our son was born when everything started to go wrong. About a year after money was going missing and I never knew where my boyfriend was or were his money was going he worked but never seemed to have any money. I never dreamed it was anything like a drug addiction. One afternoon he came home from work feeling unwell. He went up stairs for a nap told me to wake him in hour. I went on as normal cleaning and looking after our baby, an hour pasted and I went to wake him only to find him hardly breathing he had overdosed on heroin. This was the first time I found out about his addiction. He tolled me he had been on heroin for about 6 months and was positive he would be able to get himself clean, after this he tried to get clean unsuccessfully trying methadone and subutex but all has failed. He has lied and stolen money and goods out of my home to feed his habit. Then promised to never do it again and get clean all have failed it’s the hope and the constant disappointment when you find they have failed that hurts the most. I have lived with this for nearly 5 years now and at Christmas I said enough was enough and asked him to leave when I found he overdosed again for the second time. Although he left I still help support him and tried to help him so much but he became very manipulative to obtain money and the lies got worse. I still love him with all my heart but feel the heroin has taken him away from me and our son, and feel I will never trust him again. Sometimes I feel guilty and feel I wish I had seen the signs earlier so he could have got help earlier. I just hope he can someday get away from his addiction and get clean so he can have a healthy relationship with his son.